How My Life Has Been Affected Part 3

Now, from what i've told you in the previous two parts of this story, overall Turner's hadn't really affected me up until I was fifteen. Right at about fifteen is where I really started being affected. A lot of stuff came to light about the Turner's when I was fifteen. I was a fifteen year old taking medications for my thyroid, as well as birth control. I was just starting high school too which was a bit of a battle on it's own. The bullying only got worse as I got older too.

My freshman year of high school was a bit of a pit of hell. As if I wasn't smaller than everyone as it was, most of my class hit growth spurts the summer before we started high school. I had also finally started having monthly cycles like the other girls my age that year too. I remember when I had my first couple of cycles the girls were amazed cause most of them had been dealing with that issue for a couple years. I also hadn't really told a lot of my class about the Turner's syndrome until now either. I didn't need my classmates to have yet another reason to think I was different. I didn't really have a choice though when high school started because the differences really started becoming obvious. I never really felt like I fit in at all in high school. I was always treated like an underclassman because I was so much smaller than everyone. People were always asking why I was so short and how tall I was. It was kind of annoying to constantly answer these questions. This kind of stuff just continued all through high school. It didn't help that my parents split halfway through my freshman year....I had to move and start a new high school where nobody understood me.

The high school I went to for my sophmore and junior years was really cruel. I was called "umpa loompa" and other hurtful names behind my back. Between the name calling, constantly feeling like I didn't belong, and my parents split, I ended up in a very bad depression throughout most of high school. I never attempted suicide or anything, but i never wanted to go out and be a "normal" teenager. I usually stayed home with my nose in a book. I always had a bad mood, I hated the world. I was also a very stressed out teenager because I had to attempt to accomplish a ton of homework as well as work a part time to help my mom out. The depression got so bad, I was constantly having thoughts of suicide. I should let you all know that girls with Turner's are sometimes prone to depression. What got me through that the depression was knowing that I was too damn young and I there were so many things I knew I wanted to accomplish.

One of the things that got me through that I wanted to accomplish was going to college. I started community college right out of high school. I started out going to school to become a paralegal. College started out just like high school, I still didn't fit in. I was still treated like I was at least five years younger than I really was. I was still answering the same questions from high school too.I mainly just went to campue and got through classes, I didn't really interact with anyone from classes. I never joined a study group or anything. Shortly after I started college, I met my now ex-husband and things started to change. I snapped myself out of my depression mostly but I still had my moments yet at the end of the day I could still be me.